J (Jesus) O (Others) Y (You)

Brought to you from “The things I post on Facebook”…

I just want to first say, I am so thankful for my church The Journey and the friends I’ve made there. I appreciate the way God has changed my life and my perspective through being a part of it and the way I’m encouraged to trust God more and love others as Christ does, every weekend. Last nights message was great and Pastor Hilton was on fire (And the worship!!)!

 

As I was reading in 40 days: Transformed by the Cross earlier that day, the first paragraph talks about the rich man who came to Jesus unsatisfied with life. He asks Jesus a question that I reflected on and asked myself as well, “What do I need to change in order to be whole again?”. I made that my prayer and my question to Him as well.

 

Of course God showed up. Pastor’s message was about opposition and how we are to respond when it comes our way. Many of our reactions would be to withdraw or possibly to fight back. But we were encouraged and challenged to take a look through a “lens of faith” and “View opposition as an opportunity to make a difference”. You see, people are constantly watching you, and when you face opposition and react in a way that glorifies God and allows Him to bring good from the situation, they SEE that, and God begins to call them to Himself.

 

He gave us an important question to think about, “What good can I do to reflect Jesus?”
-Love people you don’t feel like loving.
-Walk towards people when you feel like walking away.
-Value people more than you value making a point.
-Encourage people even when you don’t feel encouraged.
(There was 1 more that I missed)

 

You may ask, how do I do those things? In another devotional entitled “Everyday Grace For Friends” they put it this way. “No wonder Jesus tells us to keep connected to Him, like a branch that draws nourishment from a vine! To pour forth life to others, we must first be drawing it into our own veins and letting God’s love flow through our own hearts. When we receive His grace through the power of HIs Word and Spirit in us, we no longer drain the system.”

Thank you for reading and stay tuned for the rest of my journey in finding TRUE JOY and SATISFACTION. 🙂

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The Antidote for being Unthankful

I’ve been challenged over and over this year to take a look at the lives of those that Jesus offered himself to during His earthly ministry, some of which chose not to take up their cross and follow him. One specifically named Judas.

Like you, I know Judas’s story. He betrayed Jesus and then he felt terrible about it and hung himself. We are led to believe that he died without receiving what Jesus was about to do for him on the cross. Such a sad story because as sinful as his decision was, Jesus wanted to forgive him and would have if Judas would’ve asked, because that is how far God’s grace extends.

What came to mind when thinking of Judas was how he could come to that point of selling and delivering Jesus, into the hands of His enemies. He was one of the disciples; he had to have seen the many miracles that Jesus did, healing the blind, raising the dead, feeding the five thousand. And yet, Judas became indifferent, for whatever reason, towards Jesus. Perhaps, because he wasn’t thankful but rather became resentful towards Jesus. Maybe things weren’t being done in the way he thought they should be.

A question was asked in life group, regarding the difference between our intentions and the choices we actually make. “How are your decisions affecting your walk with God?” And immediately all I could think of was how I intend to be thankful for all God has given me, and how I choose to be ungrateful still. And my decision, my choice, has led me to become indifferent toward God. Because things don’t turn out how I think God should allow them to turn out. Or I feel He is not being “fair”. I wonder if I was in Judas’s shoes, would I have been thankful or would I have become resentful. Would I have gone so far as to betray Jesus?

I also thought of Peter, denying Jesus three times while Jesus was going through the worst time of his earthly life, being wrongfully accused, going to the cross to die for “Peter’s sins”. In that moment Peter betrayed Jesus too. But the difference was that Peter recognized his sin, went out and wept bitterly, and asked for forgiveness. He chose to get his sin in check and not allow it to make him resentful. I can picture him now, the heat of chopping the guards ear off, his anger building as Jesus says, no we aren’t going to fight them, and them taking Jesus away. He wanted to stay close but he was so upset that Jesus willingly went to die. Right outside where Jesus was being tried, he denied even being with Him because this wasn’t Peter’s plan and he was upset about it, not to mention being in fear of his own life. Peter didn’t want Jesus to die. But in that moment of realization he remembered that regardless of the circumstance, he loved Jesus so much and was thankful for all He had done. The moment of asking forgiveness, crushed the very thought of resentment and anger.

When I think of what being thankful means, it isn’t just a thank you, God (although that too). It is realizing that the statement “the grass is always greener” is the biggest lie that we allow ourselves to believe. We think that if we do this instead of that or have this instead of that, we will be happy. There’s always something better or some more to gain. And we don’t just live with gratitude for everything that we already have.

I believe that the root of resentment is our lack of gratitude and thankfulness.

Don’t worry; the finger is pointed inward and not so much outward.

Lately I’ve noticed in my own life, a lack for the “fruits of the Spirit”. And when I look back I can put my finger on choosing not to be thankful. And it hasn’t just affected being thankful, but every area of my life. It has affected my love, joy, peace, gentleness, meekness, temperance, and my faith. As the saying goes, “sin will take you farther than you want to go”, even if the sin is something as simple as not being thankful.

So I urge you today, take a look at the root. What sin is it that you will find yourself walking with Jesus one day and seeing all the great things He is doing in your life, and then denying and betraying Him the next? How embarrassingly true are the words to the song…

“Prone to wander, Lord I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love.
O to grace how great a debtor Daily I’m constrained to be!
Let they goodness, like a fetter. Bind my wandering heart to thee.”

 

I believe with all my heart that the antidote to an unthankful heart is to look to HIS cross. The cross that He died on to give us life, breath, joy, peace! If we kneel before Him as He hangs there dying for our sin, broken, bruised, beaten, bleeding. How can we not be thankful?! How can we not see who we are in the presence of the one dying there for us? We are nothing but for His grace and sacrifice of His own life. The antidote is to take a daily walk to that CROSS.

 

LOOK TO THE CROSS, friends! There he’s bleeding for YOU.

 

1 King of my life, I crown Thee now,
Thine shall the glory be:
Lest I forget Thy thorn crowned brow,
Lead me to Calvary.

 Chorus:
Lest I forget Gethsemane;
Lest I forget Thine agony;
Lest I forget Thy love for me,
Lead me to Calvary.

 2 Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid,
Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed
Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

 3 Let me like Mary, through the gloom,
Come with a gift to Thee;
Show to me now the empty tomb,
Lead me to Calvary.

 4 May I be willing, Lord, to bear
Daily my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me
.

Jennie E. Hussey, 1921

Thank you for reading and stay tuned for the rest of my journey in finding TRUE JOY and SATISFACTION. 🙂

Finding Him faithful through failure

God-1 Esther-0

 

God revealed truth that I’ve been seeking.

 

A learned lesson.

 

A reminder.

 

I’ve been asking God to reveal how He is faithful because I KNOW He is, but it’s been difficult believing it. At church I have trouble singing the words to my favorite song, “Do it again”.

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed me yet

 

You’ve never failed me yet? But why do I feel failed?

 

At BSF 2 weeks ago, I really got an earful from Him. As I was doing my lesson I was constantly reminded of who I am (or rather am not) and who GOD is!

 

Romans 11: 33-34 Paul exclaims about God’s wisdom, knowledge and ways! How unsearchable His judgements are! Prior in the chapter Paul explains that the Jews rejection of Christ is how salvation was offered to ALL. From our point of view it seemed God’s plan had failed, the Israelites rejected Him, but from God’s point of view He saw that salvation would be a gift to all through this rejection. Thus His plan had more depth than we could see.

 

Can we not relate this to our own personal situations?

 

We want to get upset with God when we feel He has failed us. When from our perspective “plans” failed. But Romans 8:28 reminds us He is always working things for our good. So how then? How can we come through failure and still find God faithful? Still believe that He has a plan for our life bigger than our own dreams and goals?

 

When we read about the attributes of God, accounts of how He was and is faithful to others, and see His faithfulness in our past and present. This is how we can still find God faithful. By realizing His ways are not our ways, His plans are so much bigger than our human eyes can see, our human brains can fathom. By realizing who he is and who I am not. He sees the biggest picture. We were created by Him and for Him, for His pleasure. By living for Him we are given a JOY that surpasses our circumstances. We have a promise that He is with us always. Through it all. And that if we keep our minds on Him, He will keeps us in perfect PEACE, because we trust in Him (Isaiah 26:3).

When we read verses such as 1 Kings 8:39, Job 9:4, Job 28:12-28, Psalm 147:4 and Proverbs 3:19 we see some of God’s attributes. We find that he knows our hearts, He is wise and mighty, God knows everything-He knows Wisdom, HE KNOWS THE STARS BY NAME, He is the founder of heaven and earth.

Psalm 147:4 was especially pointed and special because my name means “star”. It reminds me of my life passage in Psalm 40 where God talks about knowing the hairs on our head, knowing the sands on the sea, thinking of us way more times than can be numbered. Knowing I am NEEDY and He still thinks about and knows ME. Who am I?

Nothing compared to God.

Dust.

And yet He cares about me.

This awesome God that holds the world in His hands, loves and cares about ME.

When we begin to focus on a more God focused perspective we realize, God has not failed us. He simply sees the future and what our desires and ambitions, as we view them through the lens of our failing human eyes, could cost us. And He wants better. We are the ones that fail ourselves, and God. We are the dust balls that toss to and fro by the waves of our emotions and whims.

So who do you think that you are?

In Romans 11:34 Paul asks, who knows the mind of God? Who did He get counsel from? To which we can answer, NO ONE. So why am I doubting? I am human. That is why. As humans we fail and others fail us. But God never does. In His vast knowledge and wisdom He sees what we do not. He proves His faithfulness just by being God.

Maybe you need a look at who HE is today? He deserves to be called FAITHFUL.

Bring to My Remembrance

I know I’ve been wrong and I haven’t cared.

I’ve been let down. I’ve been hurt. There’s a lot that’s been uncertain. A lot of why’s and bad attitudes. I’ve let myself wander into the 5 stages of grief without taking my heart to the healer. Left in a state of denial, not allowing my heart to heal, but allowing bitterness and anger to creep in instead.

It’s been a heavy load. 

My good friend gave me a book and practically made me take and read it, to which I am thankful. It’s called “Wait and See” by Wendy Pope. As I’ve been reading through it, it’s all about the waiting period and what we are to do during that. We are to remain faithful to do what we know we should do. We are to pray and are to praise Him, faithfully. It is a book about perspective and where ours should be. Wendy says, “As we wait, we find peace in God’s plans and hope in His pauses. Our focus moves from the object of our wait to the Person of our faith”. The concept she tries to convey is that through our waiting and as we lean “IN” we build our faith in Him, though our circumstance may never change. We learn that He provides and sustains even during the most difficult of times. 

I have been failing. 

I have not been “waiting well”. I’ve grown weary. My season of needing to rely on Him has been exchanged for a season of pushing Him away and avoiding my circumstances, my hurt. As I read her words I am convicted of my neglect and my attitude. The author of “Wait and See” reminds me that sometimes in order to gain perspective of how good God really is (though it may not feel that He is), is to remember those times in which He has already blessed me. At the end of the chapter she asks questions and refers to the Word, Psalm 13, 1 Peter 5:7, and finally Psalm 40:3. And in an instant I am reminded of those times where God blessed me! Where I saw Him working the most in my life.

I find comfort in His WORDS. 

Psalm 40:3 brings me back. I start to read…”And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.” 

On March 5, 2016 God woke me up early, I started praying and I specifically remember praying for a friend who was running a marathon that morning. “Lord help her as she runs, give her strength and put a new song in her mouth”….wait, where did that come from? I wasn’t sure but it was a verse I had memorized and it just came out during my prayer. After I finished praying I looked up the verse and started reading Psalm 40. It spoke to my heart like no other passage. I read it again, and again.

I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.

He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.

And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.

Blessed is that man that maketh the Lord his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.

Many, O Lord my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.

Sacrifice and offering thou didst not desire; mine ears hast thou opened: burnt offering and sin offering hast thou not required.

Then said I, Lo, I come: in the volume of the book it is written of me,

I delight to do thy will, O my God: yea, thy law is within my heart.

I have preached righteousness in the great congregation: lo, I have not refrained my lips, O Lord, thou knowest.

10 I have not hid thy righteousness within my heart; I have declared thy faithfulness and thy salvation: I have not concealed thy lovingkindness and thy truth from the great congregation.

11 Withhold not thou thy tender mercies from me, O Lord: let thy lovingkindness and thy truth continually preserve me.

12 For innumerable evils have compassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me.

13 Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver me: O Lord, make haste to help me.

14 Let them be ashamed and confounded together that seek after my soul to destroy it; let them be driven backward and put to shame that wish me evil.

15 Let them be desolate for a reward of their shame that say unto me, Aha, aha.

16 Let all those that seek thee rejoice and be glad in thee: let such as love thy salvation say continually, The Lord be magnified.

17 But I am poor and needy; yet the Lord thinketh upon me: thou art my help and my deliverer; make no tarrying, O my God.

I believe it is a perfect scenario to reflect on as I remember just how good God has been to me and as I push on to wait patiently and lean IN towards the one who knows my neediness and loves me anyway. It refreshes my heart to read it today and encourages me as I reflect back.

I remember this day like it was yesterday. I remember reading this passage multiple times and excitedly telling those I love how God had mirrored my life in this chapter. I read it over and over, cried sobs of tears in thanksgiving and praised Him for how GOOD He has been to me, how He had brought me out of my miry clay! I don’t think it is coincidence that God allowed the author to bring this to my recollection.

God wants us to remember in the most difficult of times that He is still here, looking after us. Wanting to work all things for our good, that we may glorify HIM.

Thank you for this reminder, dear Lord! Forgive me for not waiting well. 

To the ones who feel trapped.

First off, I’d like to say I appreciate every kind word expressed. Every encouraging “I understand, I can relate!” every “me too” as my good friend would say. I am not keen on sharing personal information about myself. Especially being raw, honest, and open on a public site. I am an extremely private human being. Although some mistake me for being an extrovert, funny enough. I truly believe God has me writing my story for a greater purpose than me. And if what it takes is sharing my story and getting out of my comfort zone to let you know YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this mess called life, then I am willing.

Tonight I sit with a heavy heart. Wanting to reach out my hands to those who have been told that because of their mistakes they are worthless to God. To those who have been burned by other christians.  To those who have been shamed into crawling into a whole in the ground. To those who have been scarred for life by those they trusted. To those who thought they had to be perfect, sinless, to fit in but could never attain such. To those who were made to feel bad for what they’d been through, past or present. To those who were scoffed at by the hypocritical. To those who were bound by a legalistic code that Jesus did away with on the cross. God’s not finished with you yet, so don’t allow anyone to tell you what you’re worth, but the One that created you. 

Have you allowed people to shape you into who you are, or have you allowed God?

Allowing people to do what only God should do can create bitterness, anger, and sometimes a path to just walking away from Him. An overwhelming feeling of defeat.

I can attest to this. I was young, naive, shapeable. I was caught in a self-righteous crowd. But when I turned from that, feeling overwhelmed with all the rules I had to keep and the image that was required, I jumped off the deep end and walked away from God. That was my knowledge of God, and I didn’t want it. I knew I’d never fit in with the God-crowd again. At the time I didn’t want to anyway. But through His miracles He wooed my heart again and brought me back to Him. Letting me know that His mercies are new everyday and that my mistakes and bad decisions hadn’t defined me or His plan for my life. That as my Father, He loved me and had grace upon grace to offer, something that was new and refreshing to my ears. He ran to me though I had taken and spent all that He had given and He put His arms around my neck and said welcome home, I still love you as my child.

I want to encourage those who have made mistakes and bad decisions in their life and think God could never use them or love them again. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are His child. He is your Father. I don’t know what kind of earthly father you have had but our Father, God, He loves you and cares for you with an everlasting love. And He will never stop working on you until the day you die. Allow Him to pick up your broken pieces and bring beauty out of the ashes of your life. Dust yourself off, pick yourself up, and begin trusting Him with your all. The devil wants you to stay down, he wants you to feel useless and unloved, discouraged and defeated and he will use others to help do that. But God has overcome all of that, and He desires to use you in the lives of others. He needs you to share what He’s done for you and share the good news of His Gospel so others can know that God’s love is true love. 

Romans 8:31-39 says, 

 31What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? 

32He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? 

33Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies; 

34who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us. 

35Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

36Just as it is written, for your sake we are being put to death all the day long;
         We were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.

37But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. 

38For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 

39nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

He died for us, so we could live for Him. He knew we could never be perfect or sinless, so He sent the One who could, to die in our place. He took the sins of the world on Him that day- past, present and future. Now He offers you grace in place of your mistakes and past decisions so that you can live for Him, unashamed. 

I hope today you find an ounce of encouragement knowing YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this journey of life and living for Him. 

Busela

About 2 years ago I bought a bicycle and I named her Busela, she would bring me happiness and independence.

After all, when riding a bike it’s that feeling of the wind on your face and it running through your hair that makes you feel happy. That makes you feel like you’re unstoppable and independently in control. That rush of thinking you know what you’re doing and it’s all going to be ok.

This was in my stage of denying God and any belief in Him. 

I was working two jobs and living the life. I had more money than I needed and more brokenness than I knew what to do with. I was in a stage of grief and not knowing who I was or what I wanted to be or do. I was vulnerable. Seeking. Mad. Bitter. Hurt. Unhappy. Empty. Broken.

What I desired most was to be independent and happy- doing my own thing. I had just gotten out of a long term relationship and was seeking happiness in others only to be let down every time. 

On top of that I had felt that God had let me down in my marriage. And I wasn’t about to give my life over to Him, again.

I was a mess.

Fast forward to now. 

I am choosing to be thankful in where he has me. It isn’t easy. There are good days and bad days. But when I look back 2 years, for a brief moment I think I am back to that spot. Living with my parents, putting my life back together, fresh out of a serious relationship, wishing to be independently happy. But as I look back I realize and see how much I’ve grown. How much God has GROWN ME. And it encourages my weary heart.

You see the lessons I have learned, and am still learning are worth every step of this journey. I am thankful that every time Siri says, “you have arrived” I can laugh out loud and say, “well actually I haven’t but thank you very much anyway!” or sometimes I mischievously say, “I know I’ve arrived!”. The point is, it reminds me of how I haven’t yet arrived because God’s still working on me. And when I feel like He’s still trying to teach me the same lessons year after year, I don’t have to be discouraged because I can rejoice over His patience with me. I am thankful that 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”

My favorite song right now is “Do It Again” by Elevation Worship.

Walking around these walls
I thought by now they’d fall
But You have never failed me yet

Waiting for change to come
Knowing the battle’s won
For You have never failed me yet

[Chorus]
Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You’ve never failed me yet

[Verse 2]
I know the night won’t last
Your Word will come to pass
My heart will sing Your praise again

Jesus You’re still enough
Keep me within Your love
My heart will sing Your praise again

[Chorus]
Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed me yet

I’ve seen You move … you moved the mountains
And I believe … I’ll see You do it again
You made a way … where there was no way
And I believe … I’ll see You do it again

[Chorus]
Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed me yet

And You never failed me yet
I never will forget
You never failed me yet
I never will forget

This song makes me cry sobbing tears every time I hear it and sing it. Do you ever feel that you’re walking around those same walls, those same struggles, those same lessons with no movement whatsoever?

For me that lesson is relationships. I have this terrible tendency to allow that special person to take the place of God in my life. To become what is most important to my heart. And every time God says, no, we’re not doing that. And yet I still choose to do that. I’m selfish. I want what I want. And anytime we become selfish in our hearts and desires God has to remove them from our life so He can teach us to rely solely on Him. And He can take back His throne in our hearts.

So here I find myself walking around walls, wondering when they will fall. When I will learn this lesson. But, in the meantime I have learned greatly over the past 2 years what a bicycle could never teach me. I have learned to lean into God for my independence and happiness. Because true happiness comes from knowing that the battles already won and that God never fails! That He is my confidence and He is faithful! 

And that is the difference between two similar situations. Then. And now.

My confidence lies in the one who holds my future. Because I have seen Him move those mountains in my life. And I know I’ll see Him do it again. He is still enough. And through the pain, I will learn to sing His praise again.

“I’ve seen You move … you moved the mountains
And I believe … I’ll see You do it again
You made a way … where there was no way
And I believe … I’ll see You do it again”

Thank you for reading and stay tuned for the rest of my journey in finding TRUE JOY and SATISFACTION. 🙂

In the absence of words

Right now I don’t even know what to write. All I keep thinking over and over in my head are the lyrics from Hillary Scott’s song “Thy Will”

HILLARY SCOTT
Thy Will

I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So I’ll follow through
Somehow I ended up here

I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I got is hurt
And these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about

It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am not

So thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I can really relate to every bit of this song.

Do you ever get really mad at God and just not want to talk to Him? Me too. Because right now, “all I got is hurt”. It seemed like I did hear him loud and clear. I thought my prayer had been answered. And I still don’t understand. Nothing makes sense. And I just feel hurt. I am saying why God? And not that He needs to give me an answer. But He is a loving Father that I can go to with my broken heart and ask why.

I am thankful that Romans 8: 26 & 27 says that when we don’t know what to say or what to pray He intercedes and prays for us towards God’s will.

26 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.

 27 And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.

“I don’t wanna think I may never understand that my broken heart is a part of your plan” I think these words just make a heart hurt more. And yet how much do we feel every word?

But I am thankful for these, “And I know you think
Of things I could never think about”, because somewhere down deep inside I know I’m going to be ok because God knows all. And I don’t have to. All I have to know is that He holds my heart. He holds my hand. He carries me. He loves me. And He wants the best for my life. He has a plan. He has a BIGGER plan for me than I do.

And in those promises, I find strength.

Even though, right now, I don’t feel strong.

Through Pain

So much suffering

We are to look above

So many in pain

We are to look within

It isn’t fair

They don’t understand

How can it happen

My heart cries out to Him

Draw us closer

Hold our hearts

Give us peace

Let us move towards Him

What could we have done

Where could we run

Our hearts in question ask

We thought it was a gift

But taken away it was

And now we sit with empty hands

Our heart split into two

The why’s feel unanswered

And hope nowhere in sight

A calmness within the storm

He is the One who answers

He says peace be still

I calmed the waters

And now I will calm you

Let me hold your breaking heart

Hand me all your cares

I know it seems so difficult

But trust my love for you

I am the great Creator

I work all things for good

Though it seems your world is over

I can help you through

I love you more than ever

And I have overcome much too

I promise I’ll be with you

With every step you take

You will not face this pain alone

Because I don’t forsake

Find comfort in my promises

And take me at my word

I’ll never leave you comfortless

My strength I’ll give to thee

I’ll be your refuge and your cleft

So hide yourself in me

(dedicated to friends who lost their baby 💔)

 

 

Whole Again

Gathering up the pieces,

I long to be whole again.

Looking up with open hands

I give back what I’ve taken.

Humbly bowing in submission

I readjust my position.

Casting all my care on Him

For I know He cares for me.

And when I turn my eyes

Back to His face,

I find that He is loving, true, and tender,

And I am undeserving of His grace.

But somehow that just draws me closer

Because He’s like a Father.

And I the ungrateful daughter,

Who just keeps on forgetting.

I want nothing more 

Than for Him to be my hearts desire.

For all aspects of my will,

To be aligned with His.

Nothing ever more important,

Than the One who died for me.

I see Him hanging on that tree,

And it brings me to my knees.

How could I be so foolish

To think my life, all for me. 

I must ask for spiritual eyes

To see what needs to be seen.

For only then and in His Name

Will I be whole again.

His Name

What brings honor to your Name,

Or magnifies your fame?

The hypocrite will never show,

And the unbeliever will never know.

What brings beauty to that Name,

And reverence just the same?

Is it a humble heart that seeks You alone?

Or one that bows before Your throne?

Is it a contrite heart,

or one of stone?

How will men believe the beauty of it?

A Name so worthy of our praise.

Are we proclaiming and obeying it?

Or do we seek our own to raise?

A look deep down will prove to us,

If we are full of thankfulness.

Bringing glory to His name,

And spreading abroad His great fame!

For in our selfishness we cannot.

And in our denial we are caught.

In our disobedience we deny

His worthiness of our comply.

And bringing to His Name disgrace;

Spitting in His face.

You see, it isn’t just in our abilities,

But also simple humility.

A life lived in submission,

To carry on the great commission.

To tell the world of His Beauty,

And show them, not just out of duty.

You see friend,

Your story paints a picture

Of how they see His Name.

So do you prove it richer,

Or do you bring it shame?